I am tagged by BECK TAI POH

yes...just in case you dont know who is TAI POH...he is SHAWN.....beck tai poh.
i dont get why u didnt like your last name.
its so....rare and original...

only one in the world.

i'm kinda bored...so i'm gonna do it.


Real name: sorry, i dont use it often so i forgot...

Nickname: Betsy Ann Bridget May Wong Hui San

Married...to my bed

Male/Female: i am really not clear about this...(some call me dude or man)

High school: i got 2...one is co ed one is girl school

College: the one academy of communication design

Short or long hair: neither...depending on the nominal of the long and short. i think my hair length is just nice...shoulder length

Are u a health freak: not at all...not at the age of being a health freak yet

Height: one six something la.....forgot

Do u have a crush on someone?: yeah...

Do u like yourself: yeah...more than shoes

Piercings: only a pair on the ears...less is more

Righty of lefty: left handed...stereotyped as good in art. whatever...its a superstition...

First....

Surgery: i tried removing the mole on my left cheek. fail....i will go for a second attempt. Definitely

Piercing: no more. only ears...thats it....water will leak from everywhere if i got too many holes.

Person u see in the morning: very random one....not family members usually. I think should be my dog Snowy

Award: Merit Kancil Awards and erm...i give myself one whenever i break the record of the longest time in slumber

Sport u join: does shopping counts? other sports...i just dont have the reflex la...compare with if i see a pair of shoes or dress....i'll only need a half second to decide whether it will be in my closet or not.

Pet: tortoise fish dog rabbit ( all left me in whatever ways...death, runaway, released....etc). Current one is a circus dog. name snowy

Vacation: the last one...a journey alone to Singapore. it was great due to the sale.

Concert: Waiting for Mika Nakashima...i love random songs by random ppl...so susah...

First crush: i think i am too young to remember

Currently...

Eating: nothing

Drinking: saliva

I'm about to: yawn

Your future...

Want kids: nah...having kids means investing in a non profitable organization...

Want to get married: I would like to try to be a bride at least once...

Careers in mind: fashion stylist or singer

Which is better?

Lips or eyes?: eyes cant talk but it tells a thousand words...

Hugs or kisses: i dont know...never tried kisses before...how to compare....

Shorter or taller?: preferably taller

Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous...surprise me!

Sensitive or loud: Loud la...

Troublemaker or hesitant?: Troublemaker...hesitant is uhm...boring?

Have u ever....

Kissed a stranger?: No...its insane...who knows the next time i am in jail

Drank bubbles: teh tarik ar? dish bubbles? soap bubbles?

lost glasses/contacts: i got some glasses in my kitchen and contacts in my phone. i think they stay at their place so i dont think i lose them

Ran away from home: always did. i was in a rush to college ma...if not run what else? fly?

liked someone younger: nope...not that i recalled

liked someone older: yeah...

Broke someone's heart: yeah

Been arrested: no....

Cried when someone died: yeap

Do u believe in...

Yourself?: Sometimes i doubt

Miracles: well, i think so far...it only happen on other people.....however, i will wait and if i happens...i will blog my miracle

Heaven: I wanted to...but somehow i cant bring myself to believe something i cant see

Santa Claus: i think Santa not shaving is kinda gross...imagine him eating hotdogs with mustards...eww

Magic: yes...i myself is magical

Angels: yeap. they are around disguising as my friends

Answer truthfully..

Is there someone u want to be with right now?: yeah...

Do u believe in God?: oh yes...

Tag 5 ppl:
1) Ah peng ( he needs a long post once in a while dont u think?)
2) Julie ( always unexpected...so it must be fun...selling clothes while answering tags)
3) Tan weipeow (i wanted to see how he's gonna do it in a chinese version and english version)
4) Ashlei (she never respond to tags one.....better respond to this one)
5) William (its time to get your blog alive lo...)

1. who is your all-time inspiration?
my dog. when i see my dog during rainy days, i know what is the meaning of "when there is a will there is a way". My dog can squeeze itself in through the grill which is 7 inch by 7 inch when its rainy days to get into the house. Mind u, its not a puppy...and i think it is very admirable to the fact that it manages to get in no matter what...but i hate the fact that its a coward.


2. what is your dream career?
being able to travel while getting paid.

3. what major thing are you working on right now?
on settling down my objectives and aims in life and how to get myself a guy...

4. where is the place that you want to go the most?

The most would be to the somewhere that doesnt even exist on the map. how cool is that

5. if you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
my dream is to have 3 wish to be granted. and while 3 of the wish will be having another 3 of the wish to be granted and it goes on....

6. what do you like in your other half?
i dont know...when theres a person i like, i will be able to like his strength and weaknesses. Ok, maybe i will want to like the fact that he likes me as well.

7. what are you afraid to lose the most now?
Myself and the people i love.


8. if you win $1 million, what would you do?
I will bury it on the ground and water it everyday....


9. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Timing is important. If I have confidence in myself and someone i love, i will definitely do it


10. list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
BECK TAI POH - not a smoker, hardworking, lame (not everyone can afford to be lame ok?)

11. what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
requirements? hey, i dont think its an audition....

12. which type of person do you hate the most?
hypocrite.

13. what is your ambition?
to be able to do what i like doing and live life to the fullest...(quote ashlei)

14. if you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point. i want to face it and admit it.

15. what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
achievements ( in careers, relationship, awards...etc)

16. are you a shopaholic or not?
oh yes i am....definitely. i am crazy when its sales.

17. state one of your desire.
i want to live on my own...i dont want to live a sheltered life

18. if you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
indecisiveness...

19. what is the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
what about changing it to "whats the last shocking thing you've done?"
ok, the answer is I RESIGNED. (it was tough)

20. what do you wish to have now?
Money and probably another pair of shoes.

2nd TagList out 20 names

1. Chrystal
2. Ashlei
3. Eve
4. Juliana
5. Melisa
6. Pek Mun
7. Yenny
8.Edmund
9. Dora
10. JT
11. Shawn
12. Ah Peng
13. Tan Wei Peow
14. OPX
15. Ah Ying
16. Kah Khing
17. Amanda
18. Royce
19. Sam
20. Minnie

How do you know 14?
Classmates...from college

What would you do if you had never met 1?
cannot imagine. i wouldnt be me right now i had never met chrystal...

What would you do if 9 and 20 dated you?
hmm...if would be fun if its dora.
sorry minnie, i didnt want andy to beat me up...so i'll pass

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
erm...i dont really agree in lesbianism...

Do you think 8 is attractive?
well...he has his own charms la....i guess

Do you know anything about 12's family?
his mom is a FANTASTIC cook.

Tell me something about 7.
A musician and a teacher. Awkward in front of camera. She needs to wear a skirt!

What is 18's favourite food?
hmm....i think its alcohol....

How old is 16 now?
an old man of 22 years old.

When was the last time you talked to 13?
hmm...lets see...few days ago? cant seem to remember.

Would you date 4?
tall enough for me...not my cup of coffee

Would you date 17?
maybe...waffles sifu.....i can get to eat alot of good stuff

Is 15 single?
Yes. I dont think she will be getting anyone soon lo....if she cant get rid of her bad habit of grabbing ppl's boobs or penis....

What is 10's last name?
Junn Tseng

Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11?
Haha...poor guy got rejected.

Who is going out with 19?
I dont know...would be interested to know though...

Which school does 3 go to?
TOA lo...

Where does 6 live?
Near near my house nia....

What is your favourite thing about 5?
Shes like the perfect wife candidate for guys...
currently single leh....

okay i am done!

Name it for me....

imagine a silver myvi.....


now, i need to name my first ever new car....totally owned by myself...haha

puleeze people, for those who reads this,.....

do me a favour, drop your recommendation on what should i name my car.


i didnt have any picture to support, but i suppose u can simply imagine coz i know u guys are amayzing friends....right?



thank you!!!

I resign..

...for the first time in my first job for the first month.

i think resigning is so hard that i think confessing to a guy is much easier now

from last night....i am afraid of how to tell the boss....
and from the morning once i reached the office, i am so restless i drank two cups of cold water, go to toilet a few times before i had the courage to go to the boss' office.


even prayers dont help...

its really the hardest thing i have ever done in my lifetime

and because its only ONE DAMN month....and i QUIT....may, u are so ridiculous!



its so not cool...
all i did was nodding and nodding....


i didnt enjoy what the boss said to me, i didnt enjoy listening to it to make me feel guilty.
but i understand that its their job to make u feel guilty if you want to quit.


i hope i can managed to be accepted into the company i really wish to be in and to be able to give my heart and soul to the company.


regardless....it is really hard to say "resign"



in the evening, supposedly i am supposed to get a call from the new company but i didnt get it.
so i decided to call the CD and she already left the office.

so i called the AD instead and her answer was to my dissapointment.
they said they did not need anymore designers, be it full time or contract designer.

i feel like i couldnt digest my dinner.
i feel dissapointed that i couldnt get the job.


so, i will have to reply another company who are waiting for my answer...


all my last night's thought went to waste...

thinking that i am so marketable that companies are waiting to hire me.

its good to be confident....not over(x100000)ly confident...


nvm...lets think of the bright side....

ok...the less dimmer side....


i will be able to uhm....uhm....

shop in pyramid, watch movie in pyramid etc la.....



okla topic end la....

Dying...

...for another job.

i think problem really comes in when human goes older...
you worry you dont have a job
you worry when you have one
and you worry how are u gonna get a new one
and finally you worry how are you gonna dissmiss yourself from the old one


and so i went for a few interviews....so far so good....
i think interview these things are like piano....
practice.


the more you practice the better you think you are.
and interviewing is just like going into the exam room and waiting for the examiner to say"start"


so far, while i am enjoying getting calls from people who are interested in hiring me...i am frusfrated how am i gonna tell the current boss....


a sense of guilt is surrounding me.

its just because they are nice people and to be honest i just hate myself sitting in the office getting free wage without putting any effort worth the money.


and i am rusty. dragged myself too far from design for a few months.

now getting fat and ugly....eww
please get the mirror away from me.....


catching up with lost dramas....

recently watching sapuri...


i want......


CASH...


theres this pair of shoes i want so badly...
i am waiting for cash to drop from the tree....

ugh...next week...baby, please be mine.....
i will post u up here for everyone to see....

promise me u wont follow other girls okay?

Amazing.....

grace.........
how sweet the sound.....
that saved a wretched like me...................................................

i....once was lost....
but now am found...
was blind....but now i see......


we sang this song when my po po died....
it is the final song of goodbye...

i will live as if tomorrow ends....





and will pray that i can do what i dream


i dont want my passion for art to die....
please let it live.....

i pray for its safety....

’Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears reliev’d;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believ’d!

Thro’ many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace has brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promis’d good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yes, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease;
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forbear to shine;
But God, who call’d me here below,
Will be forever mine.

i...am grateful

thank you

june prunes....

these are the June princesses......























Melisa!!




and......





















Yenny!!



this months' attraction....

melisa and yenny
featuring the june prunes....


and the GOOD NEWS is ......

both of them are single and available...

selling hot....
want me to insert their profile??


haha

well....it depends on the response....

just a little background of their expertise....

Melisa - med student
Yenny- musician


cool isnt it?

Maybe i should just try being a singer...

isnt it?

its too hard to decide for a designer or advertiser...

for instance...design has layout design and packaging design...which one?
this is enough generate brain tumor....

cool down? or take it easy?
i wish i could....why am i so uptight....


maybe i should start taking life no so seriously...
like maybe i shouldn't be so agitated towards someone attitude....
maybe i shouldnt got so worked up when adobe didnt send me any mails....
maybe i shouldnt be so uptight that i start to hate myself for being indecisive....

maybe i should just BE A SINGER AND ROCKED THE WORLD...

like this.....

Mr. Sunquick Soldier

left! right! left! right! left! right! left! right! left! right! left! right!


say hello and salute to mr sunquick soldier.

this makes my day.....well...abit la...

Today; I Want

today i feel like blogging....today i feel sleepy....today i feel vietnameesed.....today i am lost....today i am happy....today i crap alot...today i bought a new pair of babies.....today i reached workplace too early....today i put on makeup....today i wear red....today....


i want to design something.....i want to work on something....i want to be spoiled....i want to meet up with friends....i want email from Adobe....i want another pair of shoes....i want to sleep early....i want to sew....i want some attention....i want highlights on my hair....i want salary....i want....

Its weekend...

Okay, its weekend...and i would have to finish the catalog cover and err...some content page la...divider la.....etc la.....



i wan to do something designerish today....i miss college.
maybe i'll sew a new purse for myself, or a new hard drive cover...

anyone wants to custom made any bags or covers or containers? ( cloth based la)
i am still free to do that....


oh...and anyone can gimme ideas on the design outside...

maybe i should post some of the suggested sketches next time...hoho...


and maybe i'll turn this into a blog to sell my designs...cool eh?



good, i have an aim now....at least theres something to take over those petty calculations....


i think i'll start with a pencil case/clutch/harddrive cover/makeup bag/camera bag.

Week in review

The first week of my job has started.

i have got no table, chair, software and even computer.
bad in a sense, i had to sit in temporary table with my colleague.
great in a sense i can require to buy all the things i need with company money of course.


this aside, what makes me unmotivated is looking at figures....as in numbers, guys......
i have been navigated too long from it and now i get nausea thinking of it.


the people there are nice, especially Jamie, my so call trainer la...she is a technical designer who has been working in the glass field for 10 years so her expertise is not questionable...

so yau yeng doing all the maths without need to think much.
but looking at her is one thing, understanding her teachings is one thing...

she keep explaining to us what is what and i keep getting the yawning sickness...
maybe the lunch was too heavy....

i pity her la...she is so nice.....



ok, now guys, today's class is about ADD MATHS! ARENT YOU GUYS EXCITED?
blerh....dx dy


can someone strangle me please?
i think i should look for a new job.
this is really tough for a person like me la....


the topic of the job now really wandered too far from my ideal.
yes, i know theres no such things as ideal....but at least gimme something i know how to do alright?


this is way too haywired. what has happened to me? look, i have to travel 2 hours in the jam to and fro to work only to realised that i dont like it....eww...can u imagine that?

and its not like the salary is coming any sooner.


sigh...i need a ballet pumps....or i'll have all the muscles i dont need in my calves.

it has been quite a boring and tired week though...too much confusion, mood swings like nobody's business....and right up till now, i am still doing the catalog thingy for my couzie...

but somehow i feel fortunate that....oh....luckily i still got some design thingy to get my hands on.


but i will be finishing it by today already....

ah......get me work,.....
designer work....i want to work in magazine la......






ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
this is bad.....i dont like this...

hey friends, got any design job to recommend? i might want to change job...

bored...
go for some entertainment...meeting up with college friends like chrystal, ashlei jt and etc....

went to watch kung fu hung mao with jojo....so hilarious....and its in cantonese....

quote Shifu : ngo tei hai mai leung ko dou heung jor...?

(did we both die? )


worth the money and time watching...its a good break...so i can breathe for a while

Johor Singapore

This will be pictureless...well...only got one
just realized that i can be quite lazy to take out the camera to shot something...

ah well...i was taking damn alot of things...laptop la....bags la....


its sales everywhere and it doesn't exclude Singapore....and you know i love sales.



i traveled from kl central to take an intercity (just for the experience) to johor bahru.....
and since i traveled alone, sometimes it feels lonely, sometimes it feels sleepy. or a little bit of excitement and FULL of anticipation.

but one thing i dont really like about the trip is having to sit backwards. it can be uncomfortable at times...


i reached johor bahru station 2 hours late from schedule....and when i reach, i see this awesome view from the overhead bridge.

(its motorbikes la)


cool, isnt it? never in my life i seen so many....haha (so jakun)

and so i reached city square, and i was shocked to see endless buntings and boards with the the four letter word....(you know what i mean)

and so i walked shop to shop...some crazy shops has 50-70 percent off. Oh...Lord, you showered me with your blessings. so i bought a sneaker and a stripe top.

no pictures yet...might post it the next time.

took a cab to my cousin's place, and yes...i need a bath and a nice rest....

i had a room reserved for me...yay!


i stay there for a couple of days due to "work" (as an excuse) and to test out my new passport (the main reason) so i went to singapore knowing theres a good news and bad news....

which one first? ok, lets talk about the bad news...
a night before my departure, the news announces the sing dollar rate just went higher...suay isnt it?
but the good news is......


SINGAPORE IS ON MASSIVE SALE!!!AHHHHH......HOW LUCKY CAN I GET?

okay, anyway....i hop on a bus for a 15 minutes ride to reach singapore....and 1 hour wait for custom. *whatever curse word la...*


singapore mrt....incredible...
ezlink card....superb...
fashion.....interesting...
bags....cool....
muji.....awesome....
food....bleh....
everything.....expensive


just when i wanted to go back to johor bahru, there was this water ah....pouring from the sky la...and ah...inside the bus also got flooded a little.

so just a 15 minutes bus ride took one and half hours....
so i look like an aunty with lotsa plactisbags around me like as it those were my luggage. spoil my image only....


and .....it will be my first step on being a traveller....

this is due to the misplacement of those signs....saying "johor bahru" that tricked me into walking from the custom in singapore back to johor bahru....
i am marvellous, aint i? so stupid....

it sounds far but actually its still ok la....like walking from pyramid to summit lo....(quite far la actually...)


so the singapore trip ended with sweat and blood....

sweat is for me la.....blood is for my purse actually...


love my new stuff....teehee...



and the trip ended with a bus stuck in traffic jam la...malaysia ma...usual la...

all well ends well....
and gotta start working after this trip...
*drools for the salary*