I resign..

...for the first time in my first job for the first month.

i think resigning is so hard that i think confessing to a guy is much easier now

from last night....i am afraid of how to tell the boss....
and from the morning once i reached the office, i am so restless i drank two cups of cold water, go to toilet a few times before i had the courage to go to the boss' office.


even prayers dont help...

its really the hardest thing i have ever done in my lifetime

and because its only ONE DAMN month....and i QUIT....may, u are so ridiculous!



its so not cool...
all i did was nodding and nodding....


i didnt enjoy what the boss said to me, i didnt enjoy listening to it to make me feel guilty.
but i understand that its their job to make u feel guilty if you want to quit.


i hope i can managed to be accepted into the company i really wish to be in and to be able to give my heart and soul to the company.


regardless....it is really hard to say "resign"



in the evening, supposedly i am supposed to get a call from the new company but i didnt get it.
so i decided to call the CD and she already left the office.

so i called the AD instead and her answer was to my dissapointment.
they said they did not need anymore designers, be it full time or contract designer.

i feel like i couldnt digest my dinner.
i feel dissapointed that i couldnt get the job.


so, i will have to reply another company who are waiting for my answer...


all my last night's thought went to waste...

thinking that i am so marketable that companies are waiting to hire me.

its good to be confident....not over(x100000)ly confident...


nvm...lets think of the bright side....

ok...the less dimmer side....


i will be able to uhm....uhm....

shop in pyramid, watch movie in pyramid etc la.....



okla topic end la....